Thursday, January 29, 2009

Extra! Extra!

Read all about it - yours truly was in a German newspaper! Check out the link here.


(this is the photo you would've seen if you'd clicked the link above)

The gist of the story is that my roommate's boyfriend and some of his colleagues are opening a cultural center in this building on Jakobstrasse where an old bar used to be. The center's going to be called the Gauss Haus, after the Carl Friedrich Gauss (click on the name to read more about the man), and it's going to offer a place where people of all ages and cultural backgrounds can meet to hang out and learn stuff. There'll be language learning classes (English, Arabic, German, etc.), math workshops for kids (led by my roomie), multi-culti breakfasts and movie nights ... it's gonna be mad cool and exactly what I want in my life right now.

I've been helping to get the place ready for the actual opening in February by painting walls, scrubbing floors, and drinking tea (tea breaks - I'm union, you see. We gotsta have our breaks). What's funny is that some little old men keep coming by the haus and staring in the windows because they didn't know that the bar (which closed down and whose space we now occupy) isn't there anymore. So, they keep trying to come in and ask for a beer. And we're there, covered in paint, like, "Well ... we're not that bar anymore, but if you come back in a week you can learn about astronomy!" And they're out the door ...

(PS: Link to the Gauss Haus website on the left-hand side.)

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Down For The Count

So, I fainted yesterday.

Yeah. On my face, straight-up passed out. Go me.

Oh, what happened? Well, I was out with my friend Caroline. We had gone out for a beer at Cafe Alex, where I also had a big ice cream and some bread (I was hungry after helping my roommate paint in town all day and I went for the unhealthiest thing I could find). Then we went to this nearby pub that we hadn't been to in a while, where we watched some football and ordered another beer. I got one or two sips into my beer when I felt really hot and sick. I went to the bathroom and --oops! hey, there's that ice cream I just ate. I figured, well, I guess I ate something wrong. It's either that or that beer at Cafe Alex was atomically strong, which I'm doubting. I thought I'd feel better after being sick, but I didn't. I still felt awful and hot and there was this ringing in my ears. My vision started getting fuzzy and narrowing. This has happened to me before, though. I'm prone to fainting, but it's usually when I get too hot or don't eat enough. So as I'm sitting there in the bathroom of Lindi's I'm thinking, "Okay, I'm just overheated. I'll go outside and then I'll feel better." But when I tried to stand up, my vision pretty much narrowed to pinpoints and I couldn't hear anything but a high-pitched ringing. I walked out of the bathroom and past Caroline on my way to the door. I think I said something to her like, "I need to go outside for a minute" but what probably came out was, "U'mu gnugh ...." Because then my whole body started shaking and I fell against some poor guy who turned out to be the owner of the freaking bar. That's right. I fell on the owner. His name is Gunter.

So, Gunter asks me if I need help and I mumble something about needing to get outside before I completely black out and fall on my face. During the fall I hurt my hand, gave myself a bit of a black eye, and bit off part of my tongue, in addition to other various bodily bruises. I woke up dizzy and sick outside with people questioning me in German. I'm trying to explain to them, "No, I'm not drunk, I'm just prone to fainting when I get really hot ... or when I don't eat much ... what did I eat today? Uhm ... Hey, wait, did someone call the ambulance? Why is the ambulance here?" Crap. Then I get put into the ambulance, where two guys rapid-fire questions at me in German while they take blood and get my blood pressure and pulse and all that jazz. I'm not ready for this line of questioning in German in general, and certainly not when I've just come to after passing out. So I'm trying to explain that I fainted, so I say "fainted" in English, put the back of my hand to my forehead, and roll my eyes back into my head while making a noise like I imagine a damsel in distress would make before swooning. Apparently this is "Ohnmacht" in German, and to faint is "ohnmaechtig werden". Awesome. So, they tell me that I'm fine - meaning sober, conscious, and without broken bones or major injury - then get my insurance info and drive away. Caroline takes me home, still feeling sick and shaky, a feeling which has lasted well into today.

I don't know if I'm getting really sick or what, but among my many fainting episodes this one has been unique in that I got sick right beforehand and I didn't feel better right after waking up. Maybe I've got some strange new German sickness. Who knows? Anyway, embarassing pics of my shiner and tongue to follow. Until then, I talk with a funny German lisp!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Winter Wonderland

Guess what my entire world has been covered with since I returned to Germany from England? Snow. Snowsnowsnowsnowsnow. Snow. It started when I got back on the 6th and hasn't melted at all really just yet. We've got a pretty constant 3 - 4" of it here and the temp has been staying low enough that it's remained frozen for the most part. Now, the kid in me thinks this is awesome -- I've made snow angels and had snow ball fights these past few days and I intend to go sledding before it's all over. But the grown up who has to work can only think, "Frak, now I have to walk in this stuff because it's too icy to ride my bike in. Oh, and my hair is messed up because of this big hat and the bottoms of my jeans are wet and cold and I think my nose is chapped. Is that even possible?! Who chaps their nose?!"

Anyway, the snow remains regardless of my ambivalence. And here are some pictures of it!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Ladies Go Crazy For A Sharp Dressed Man

First off, more new photos are up: I added St. Luke's in Liverpool to the Churches, Cloisters, and Cathedrals III album. The church is Heather's now. I was thinking of her for some reason, wandering around the pretty green gardens there. So, Heathen, I got you a church! I also made a video - a quick tour around the church grounds. You can see it here:


In other news: lots of birthdays going on in January. In addition to two sisters' birthdays in the U.S. there's also my littlest roommate's birthday, which was on the 9th. She turned 9 and had all her friends over for a shindig that day at her place (which is also at my place). A hoard of 9 year olds? Huzzah. But it wasn't just any birthday party, friends; it was a THEMED PARTY! AHHHH!!! The theme was "No Girls Allowed", which meant that the little room and all her friends came dressed up and acting like boys. Dressing like a boy apparently means big baggy clothes and baseball caps. Acting like a boy apparently means yelling in a deep voice, insulting everyone, and generally being even more of a spaz than usual. Little Roomie borrowed my batman t-shirt for the dressing part, which was comical, as it in no way fit her. She had to wear, like, two shirts underneath it and it still looked way baggy.

So I'm helping with the birthday party, handing out name tags and making french fries. Johanna became Johann, Nadine became Klaus, and so on with the name changing. Then the faux-boys yell at me, "Hey, you're a girl! No girls allowed!" and I say, "No I'm not! I'm a man! Look -- I have suspenders and trousers and everything!" (Side Note: Why does my conception of manhood boil down to suspenders and trousers?) And again the boys yell "But you have nail polish on! And no beard!" I was not about to undo all the hard nail painting I had just completed, but I could grant the other wish. And so, ladies and gentlemen, I present to you my male alter ego, Herr Fabian von Winstead:





A ladies' man, no? Look at that face. That's thirty seconds with my black eyeliner pencil right there. Genius.












I geev you keeses, ladies. Lots of keeses.











So dashing, I know. To tell the truth, I was quite taken with my little moustache/soul patch combo. Kind of devilish, kind of romantic. I think if I were a man, this is probably the kind of facial hair I'd have.

Jeez, I can't believe I actually think this stuff sometimes.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Der Raychel Komplex

Today I really took care of business. I ran all sorts of errands - off to the post-bank-depot, the phone store, the grocery store, yada yada yada. Feeling like I've accomplished something is great!

This evening Caroline and I decided we were going to go see a movie at this university student-run theater thing. We wanted to see Der Baader Meinhof Komplex, a German film about the Red Army Faction (a terrorist group in Germany in the 1960's and 70's). We'd never been to this place before but we figured that, since entry was only 2 euros, we wanted to find it. The theater's website gave us an address, directions, even the bus stop to get off at. But when we got there we couldn't find it; we couldn't find anything. It was a deserted street with a few lonely apartment buildings. We were understandably confused and very cold, as it's still below freezing here and there's several inches of snow on the ground. We wander up and down the street, looking for this address that simply does not exist. It's time for the movie, but we can't find the theater! How does one miss an entire freaking building?!

We see these people coming towards us down a side street, a guy and a girl. I walk over to them, getting ready to ask for directions. But the guy just brushes past before I even get a chance to finish saying "Entschuldigung ...". He says, "I don't have time." I was like, "The hell you don't! I DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM! Please stop! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!" So I verbally accosted two strangers in an alley in Braunschweig while looking for directions to a seemingly nonexistant theater.

The guy finally stops and says, "Oh, it's right through there," pointing down the long, dark alley from which he and his lady friend came. Great. Into the alleyway we go. Ten or fifteen freezing minutes later we do find the place, but by then the movie had been going for half an hour and we were too late. Do I consider this night a failure, or just a different kind of success? Like, I succeeded at getting so cold that I couldn't feel my big toes. That's a kind of success, right? Yeah! Think positive! woo!

Jeez.

Mom Wins

So, I thought I had a bad last couple of days. But no, my mom wins. She had a heart attack on Sunday. She's okay now, of course, or I wouldn't be writing. I wouldn't even be in Germany; I'd be on a plane back to the States. Which is kind of what I want to do right now. But she says she's okay and says I have to stay here. Frak. While I was sitting in an airport, moaning about my cold fingers, she was in the ICU recovering from having a freaking stint put in her heart. I honestly can't believe it. This is the kind of thing I worried about when I decided to come over here - not just that I'd miss Christmas and Thanksgiving and good times, but that I wouldn't be there for the bad times when we all really need each other. I'm stuck abroad, communicating through a little video camera and hoping nobody dies or gets maimed before I get back. But then again, what would I do if I was back anyway? Same thing I'm doing here. Sitting and worrying. Last I checked I didn't have magical life-saving powers, so it's not like I want to be there to save a life or anything. I just want to be there because .... well, I don't know. Because I want to see them in person? Get in some last words? I have no clue.

Anywho, the doctor strongly suggested that Mom give up smoking, saying it would definitely improve her health and life expectancy. So I'm giving up with her. Solidarity! Also, the whole situation kind of scared me into thinking healthy thoughts. So there you go. No mo smokes. Cold turkey. I'll just get a straw to chew on or something and I'll be good to go. Haha.

Oh, and on a completely light and fluffy note, photos from my trip to England are up! Just go here to see them.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Things I Wrote in the Airport

Following are a few lists I made while waiting around on my worst day ever (see the post just before this for why it was the worst day ever). *ahem* Here we go ....

Reasons Why Today (Jan. 5 - 6, 2009) Sucks:
  • I got 1 1/2 - no, 1 hour of sleep
  • I didn't get to brush my teeth this morning
  • I left my book to read on the plane at Caroline's house
  • no makeup on
  • bad hair day
  • spending 11 hours in an airport
  • I lost my jacket
  • food is expensive
  • I forgot my PIN ....
  • ... but recovered it, only to find that my card STILL doesn't work
  • permanently cold
  • camera batteries died
  • I got on the wrong train and ended up way out in the middle of nowhere
  • NO MONEY
  • had to overdraft my American account
  • all alone
  • had to lug my bags around everywhere
  • phone's dead
  • couldn't remember / too tired to speak German well
  • 25 minutes spent in Whaley Bridge
  • pants are falling down, but the only belt that holds them up makes me look fat
  • couldn't pay for the toilets in Manchester station
  • my Burger King meal was tiny and expensive
  • smoking is making me wheeze
  • wasted a cigarette, putting it out halfway through because the bus was coming. turns out it was the wrong bus.
  • crowded, noisy plane
  • bad-smelling man next to me
  • I've got a permanent sniffle
  • waiting in endless lines
  • plane came in late
  • had to put on all my clothes to keep warm. still not warm.
  • missed the last train out of Bremen and must now sleep in the train station
  • can't sleep
  • lost my lighter
  • didn't know the right word for "pickles" in German and got cucumbers on my sub instead
  • tired of wearing the same clothes over and over again on vacation
  • missing home
  • my toes are cold
  • my BahnCard is no longer valid
  • even the bathrooms in the train station are cold
  • still have to go to class tomorrow
  • to reiterate: I AM STUCK IN A TRAIN STATION. ALONE. IN BREMEN. IN JANUARY. WITHOUT A JACKET.
  • I owe people money
  • people who say they have no lighter when you ask to borrow theirs. I see your lighter right there, No Lighter Guy!
  • got Marlboro Lights, not Marlboros
  • people making fun of my clothes in the station
  • had to use my credit card and pay full price for a ticket when I shouldn't have had to
  • slept on my lunch for tomorrow and squished it
  • snow everywhere. I'm freezing.
... but, because I didn't want to be totally negative, I also wrote this in the station:

Reasons Why Today (Jan. 5 - 6, 2009) Is Okay:
  • fed a puppy and played with it
  • actin' crazy in a public place! woo!
  • got to run on the moving walkway at the airport
  • nice Subway guy
  • helpful Moroccan guy
  • it's a learning experience ... right?
  • I have coffee
  • I have cigarettes left
  • happenstance meetings at the airport
  • saw Manchester -- adventure!
  • browsed through comics
  • flying is fun
  • my mp3 player has good music
  • going home
  • life is about to resume - work, friends, grocery shopping, etc.
  • heard Spanish on the street car
  • drew funny pictures
  • made a joke about the really whiny screaming kid at the airport and made the old man next to me laugh
  • people who lend me their lighters. Thanks, Lighter Guys!
  • the warnings on my cigarettes are all in Romanian for some reason
  • I have pink note paper
  • the music in this all-night cafe is okay
  • free coffee with random stranger
  • trains are warm inside
  • snow looks pretty!
Things To Do In A (Semi)Deserted Train Station After Midnight:
  • skip merrily
  • make airplane noises loudly
  • take everything out of your purse and look at it. take pictures.
  • lay on the ground
  • count people
  • sing opera-style songs
  • make friends
  • learn about the Arab-Israeli conflict
  • try to sleep
  • go warm up in the bathroom by sticking your hands under the automatic hand dryers
  • play the slots
  • window shop -- ooh, la la!
  • play the "What Type of Headgear Can We Make With Our Extra Clothes?" game
  • chip off all your nail polish
  • wait. waitwaitwait. wait.
  • write lists
  • read a book. or the paper.
  • better yet, read someone else's paper over their shoulder
  • guess whether the guy sleeping across from you is a hobo or just stranded like you
  • pretend that the walls are made of rubber. bounce off of them.
  • count to 60 in all the languages you know, then make new languages to count in
and finally ... a list of things I'd like to do in my life.

Gee, I'd Love To ...
  • bungee jump
  • lose 30 lbs
  • see a Broadway play
  • climb a mountain
  • adopt a child and have it turn out to be awesome ... or even just normal is okay
  • save somebody's life
  • buy nice things for my family
  • give someone who deserves it a bunch of money anonymously
  • save the world. don't laugh, I'm serious.
  • be able to remember my PIN
  • really know a lot about wines
  • take a road trip with all my friends
  • have some stranger come up to me and say, "Hey, I saw you onstage at that show and you were really funny/good/effervescent."
  • give up smoking
  • grow my hair out long
  • go on The Price Is Right. don't laugh, I'm serious.
  • not be spending 11 hours in an airport
  • earn a black belt in taekwondo
  • run a race. like, a real one.
  • visit Scotland, Ireland, Wales, France, Spain, Portugal, Italy, Sicily, Luxembourg, Lichtenstein, Poland, Austria, Greece, Denmark, Sweden, Egypt, Israel, Australia, New Zealand, Japan, China, Switzerland, Kenya, Brazil, Mexico, Canada ...
  • learn Spanish, French, Italian, Arabic, Urdu, Mandarin Chinese, Klingon ...
  • pay off my credit card
  • go shopping for a whole new wardrobe
  • have $1,000,000.00
  • tell off everyone who's ever been snotty to anyone I love
  • leave the heat on in my room all night long
  • write a book - a memoir, a work of fiction, a poetry anthology, anything
  • have a house all to myself
  • win a ballroom dance competition, or at least enter one
  • be home right now

Bad Day

My trip back to Braunschweig from Liverpool was, quite possibly, the worst 24 hours of my life. Or at least in the Bottom Ten.

The night before I left, I couldn't sleep. I mean, just could not make myself sleep. I was up until about 5:00, maybe 5:30. But then Caroline's mom wakes me up at 6:45, 15 minutes before we have to leave. I've gotta throw on clothes, pack, and head out the door. No jacket on, because I lost it in the club on New Year's Eve. Halfway down the block, I realize that I left my Christmas gift book, Dreams from My Father, at Caroline's house. Too late. Gotta go on.

The trip to Manchester airport takes an hour. The sun was just coming up and everything was dusted with snow, so it was beautiful to look at. Beautiful and very, very cold. At the airport it's me and Caroline. We meet another Braunschweig friend, Matt, there. He and Caroline are on the same 10 a.m. flight. Me, I don't leave the airport until 7:40 p.m. and will be spending the next 11 hours in the airport. Hey, it was either come early with Caroline or shell out money for my own transport. So everyone gets on their planes and I settle down to wait for my plane in the cold terminal with my two bags. I write, I doodle, I read the book that I've already read. Then I decide, hey, let's go see Manchester! I have just enough cash to get a train from the airport to the city and back.

Train to the airport was warm, the city was neat. But on the way back I somehow get on the wrong train and end up somewhere past Buxton called Whaley Bridge. The conductor tells me I can catch the next train back there. So I get out and look around. Whaley Bridge is just that -- a bridge over the railway, a defunct one-room train depot with padlocks on the doors, and a covered shelter. I sit in the shelter and wait for my train, which will come in 25 minutes. But it's so cold that I can't stop shaking, so I start opening my luggage and pulling out all the clothes that I have and putting them on. I had on jeans, two pairs of socks, two shirts, a dress, a vest, a light jacket, two pairs of gloves, and two scarves. Still freezing. And I have no money to call a taxi or buy something to eat because, since coming to England, my German debit card hasn't been working. I used it as a a credit card for a while, because my pin wasn't working, but now for some reason I can't do that. So I'm frozen solid in Whaley Bridge with 80 pence and a dead cellphone to my name, waiting for a train that will come in 25 minutes and hoping I make my flight.

I get the train(s) to the airport and, finally, get on the plane. I sit next to a big man smelling strongly of B.O. on the Boeing 737 that RyanAir says will have me in Bremen by 10:30 p.m. I try to sleep on the flight, but I just can't and end up looking out at the circuit-board that is Manchester from a plane at night and listening to Eve 6 and Arctic Monkeys on my mp3 player. At the airport, I pick up my luggage and the first thing I do is charge my phone and call my roommate Nadine. See, I figured my card wouldn't work in England because I didn't have the right PIN number or something. I call Nadine and ask her to confirm the PIN number from my files at home. She does, and it's the number I've been trying to use. Nothing I'm doing wrong, so why won't my card work?

What am I going to do? I'm stuck in Bremen Airport with my luggage and less than a euro. I have no way to get to my German bank account until tomorrow at the very earliest but I have no place to sleep tonight and I need to get to the train station before the last train to Braunschweig leaves at 11:30. I'm hungry. I'm cold. I'm dead tired. I realize that I've got a bank account in the states that I could overdraft at the ATM and then pay back later, so that's what I do. I get 40 euros out and get a bus from the airport to the main train station ....

... just in time to miss the last train home. #$%&ing great. Now I'm in the exact same position I was in in the airport, only now I'm stuck in a train station without any heat. I could've cried. The next train comes at 4:18 a.m., which means I have 4 1/2 hours to wait, I think to myself as I buckle down on a bench to spend the night. But I can't sleep there either. Despite the fact that I'm dead tired, I'm too afraid of someone stealing my stuff to sleep. So I get up, walk around, talk to people, anything to stay awake. I play with the ticket machines and see what the most expensive ticket I can buy is, just for kicks. I feed a puppy who wanders into the station half of my leftover tuna sandwich until his owner comes and gets him. I talk with an old Moroccan man also waiting out the night in German about Israel and Palestine. I draw. I makes lists. I contemplate my life. I go to the bathroom and warm my hands up under the automatic dryer. At about 3:00 in the morning I meet a nice young man from Pakistan who invites me across the street for a coffee in this cafe, which is nice and warm. We talk about life.

Finally, my train comes. I think I'm home free and lay down to sleep, completely exhausted. But then the ticket taker comes and asks for my ticket. I give it to him, but he's looking at it all funny. He says I haven't paid the right amount and that I need to pay him the rest right now or get off the train. Well, what do I do? I try the German card. Doesn't work. I can't overdraft the American card again. On a whim I try my old credit card and - shock of shocks! - it works. Whew. Now I really am free to sleep, which I try to do on the two and a half hour ride to Braunschweig.

I get out at Braunschweig to what I think is about a foot of snow and the early morning commuter rush. I stumble home, put on pajamas, and crash for the next 10 hours.

Worst. Day. Ever. It can only get better from here!